Ok I think it's time for another post on here that actually contains meaning. For some time now I've just been doubting and doubting and I've been really really discouraged. I've just been praying that God would just help me be who he wants me to be and absolutely nothing else. I cannot believe the things I am seeing right now in people that i thought were christians. It actually seems like most of my friends have completely given up on God. Let me remind all of you that this world is temporary and no one/ nothing you love is worth losing God. "Thou shalt have NO other gods before me." It seems like people care more about things/people on this earth than they do God. For this, I say that I am UNBELIEVABLY dissapointed. I thought I had a great group of christian friends and now it seems like MOST...NOT ALL...are completely falling apart. I am not a perfect christian...in fact, I am no where even remotely close...but everyone knows that when I see something I know is wrong then I'm not going to sit back and let it happen. I know that people might just do things out of spite and that is your soul. No one ever said living a christian life would be easy so I dont understand why everyone thinks it's a cakewalk.
Something FINALLY clicked yesterday in English class. Ms Mitchell is a pretty awesome teacher and she was encouraging us to stand up and be the change that we want to see occur. Then she brought up a part from Coach Carter about the poem "Our Deepest Fear" by Marianne Williamson. Some of you may know that this is my ABSOLUTE favorite poem in the world and let me tlel you why. Some may think it doesnt relate to me....but it does, it refers to everyone.
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous.
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other
people won't feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of
God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us -- it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people
permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.
This poem means to me that everyone has the ability to be great but only very few are bold enough to stand out. It says that we are more afraid of our greatness than our faults. It says that we seem to want to shrink ourselves and what we TRULY are to fit in with everone else and how they percieve us. As you let you're light shine, it makes it easier for others to do the same.
So...whether you are with me or not...I choose to walk the path God has made for me. I want to see a change in my friends/family members and this world. I am going to try and be the change I want to see. You may call me crazy...I may walk this road alone but I know that God is right there beside me and he will not let me down. As another poem says,
| Two roads diverged in a wood, and I— |
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| I took the one less traveled by, |
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| And that has made all the difference | Most may not comment after this post but I'm used to not getting any comments after a serious post that God has told me to share....I'm praying for all of you | 
